Anime Freak

I haven't been posting lately.. I guess I've just been busy living vicariously through cartoon characters. Plus it's boring when a CERTAIN SOMEONE can't go online. Hihihi. So to anyone who might actually be checking my blog, sorry!

Memoirs of a Quitter

For several days now I've been having these really annoying, splitting headaches that last for several hours. Hours in which it is virtually impossible to get any work done, considering most of the progress I need to make require reading a 1000+ page book, coding, and debugging (which of course, need to be done facing my very reliable if somewhat moody laptop). During these times, when I try to work it feels as if my eyes are about to pop out of my head and my brain is doing backflips. I had no idea what was going on with me. I sometimes felt feverish, but it turned out I had no real fever whatsoever. So what is it?

I suddenly figured out while discussing at the dinner table today with my sister and Joe... that it's my caffeine addiction patiently reminding me through every throb of my head that I've been going without caffeine for several days. And the weird thing is that I never really realized how addicted I was. I didn't even really crave caffeine, I just felt really sick. So I guess my body and my perception are really seeing two different things. Anyways, good thing I had a diet coke to drink for dinner. ;p

Still sick..

There are just days when you feel useless, and crappy, and hopeless.

This is one of those days for me.

I hope that I feel better by the end of the week, physically, emotionally and spiritually, because... I HAVE TO.

Sick

I got sick yesterday. Suddenly felt nauseous while trying to program and then when I tried reading a book (Artemis Fowl) just to clear my head, I started feeling cold and then feverish. So today I slept most of the day.. heheh slightly reminiscent of my college days in which I mostly did nothing. Well, tomorrow it'll be back to the 'grinder' (as they call it in Tropico). I'm trying to recreate a work schedule in the house so that when it actually happens I'm a little less unprepared.

Para Sa Mas Mabilisang Download, Kumuha ng Limewire Pro

Upang magsimulang gamitin ang LimeWire, hanapin ang text field sa kaliwa, i-type ang iyong hinahanap at i-click ang "Hanapin" button. Kung ikaw naman ay naghahanap ng isang uri ng bagay tulad ng (tugtugin, bideo, etc...), maaari mong bawasan ang mga resulta ng mga paghahanap sa pag-gamit ng mga button sa taas ng text field.

Hehehhee... ankulet! Yun lang masasabi ko. Sa mga taong nagdadownload sa pamamagitan ng Limewire, subukan ninyong pumunta sa view at change language at makikita niyong may Tagalog... kulet! Parang google na tagalog.. yun nga lang, medyo mag iisip muna kayo kung ano ba ibig sabihin tulad nalang ng 'Tools' na itinranslate sa 'Mga Kasangkapan'...

(info c/o Ate Aleth)

Pangarap Ka Na Lang Ba O Magiging Katotohanan Pa?

DELL Inspiron 700m Laptop (Wide Screen Traveler)

Inspiron 700m: Intel® Pentium® M Processor 735 (1.70 GHz/400MHz FSB)12.1-in WXGA Operating System: Microsoft Windows XP Professional Limited Warranty, Services and Support: 3Yr Ltd Warr,At-Home Service,and Tech Support plus Nights and Weekends Memory: 1GB DDR SDRAM 2 Dimms Hard Drive: 80 GB Hard Drive CD ROM/DVD ROM: 8x CD/DVD burner (DVD+/-RW) with double-layer write capability Wireless Networking Card: Intel® PRO/Wireless 2915 Internal Wireless (802.11 a/b/g, 54Mbps) Primary Battery: 65 WHr 8-cell Lithium Ion Primary Battery Audio Options: PCMCIA Sound Blaster® Audigy® 2 ZS Notebook sound card External Hard Drive: 300GB USB External Hard Drive (7200rpm) Office Productivity Software: Microsoft Office Professional-Includes Outlook,Word,Excel,PowerPoint,Access Security Software: McAfee Security Center with VirusScan, Firewall, Spyware Removal, 15-months Dial-Up Internet Access: 6 Months America Online Internet Access Included Miscellaneous: Award Winning Service, Support Network Adapters: Integrated Network Card Modem: Internal 56K Modem Digital Music: Musicmatch® Jukebox Basic Digital Imaging or Digital Photography: Photo Album™ SE Basic Dell Media Experience: Dell™ Media Experience Adobe Software: Adobe® Acrobat® Reader 6.0 Financial Software: No QuickBooks package selected- Includes limited use trial Port Replicator: Notebook Expansion Dock Carrying Cases: Small Leather Carrying Case

Dell 720 Color Printer

Frustration

Sakaling...

Ika'y aking ibigti sa puno
Itabi sa pulutpukyutan
At ipalamon sa mga oso

..............

Hindi na ba ako maiinis sayo?

Boredom

So monotonous your eyes could pop
So sleepy your eyes could drop
Trying to find something fun
Looking for crushes but there are none

Listening to the radio as I drift off to sleep
Scanning through books, heap by heap
Thinking of something exciting to do
I'm so bad at it I could almost boo

Wanting to shop, having no money
Wanting a love life, having no honey
Maybe it's really like this...
With a boring, tiring life --

-- where sleeping is the only true bliss

Hahahaha! Check this out I wrote it when I was in second year high school. It's pretty shallow but I think it pretty much encompasses most of those boring moments I've felt since I was a kid.. ahahahha... The wanting to shop, having no money thing sure applies these days..

UNDER RENOVATION

Myblog's gonna be under renovation for several days so don't be surprised if it's suddenly all messy and the layout goes bonkers...

Ciao!

Where Were We 5 Years Ago?

Me and my bestie had nothing better to do than chat tonight (or we didn't WANT to do anything other than that hehe). I had the idea of bringing out my diary and typing out entries to her. One in particular caught my attention. It makes me happy knowing the great choice I made before was actually the right one. :)

"February 28, 2000

ABOUT JACE:

I'm scared of starting this because my hand hurts already but I wanna write a lot of things about this person. This should do him justice.

Everyday I think of how perfect it all is. And everyday I am scared of losing the friend I had before we decided to do this, when everything falls apart. I'm scared because I don't wanna think of long-term relationships and lifetime guarantees. I thought in this manner before and I ended up dying a little when things went wrong. I'm scared of expecting too much, or too little. Either way, I'm bound to get hurt. All I know is that I love him in a way that I've never loved anyone before. And right now, every minute of my life is happy because I know he loves me too. I'm glad to be with him because he always understood and he always cared. I love being with him because he makes things seem lighter. Obviously, he matters so much to me. I have like, a gazillion reasons to leave for the States and study in one of their universities. I am staying here on that chance that THIS MIGHT BE IT and HE JUST MIGHT BE HIM. I am of course, scared of giving him a reason to walk away and ruining it for both of us. I told myself a billion times already, THIS IS TOO IMPORTANT TO BE RUINED BY MY ABNORMAL TENDENCIES AT CHEATERY AND DECEIT. But of course, as it is with confusion, life is also full of mysteries and surprises. I don't know what's in store for us in the future. I can never know for sure until we get there. I only wish that whatever happens we'll be in good terms; whether that of a long-time relationship or the mutual understanding that we just aren't for each other. WISH ME LUCK."

Hehehe don't worry guys the abnormal tendencies at cheatery and deceit have pretty much been flushed out of my system.

I don't know who I was talking to when I asked to wish me luck, but I guess it worked! It is now 5 years into the future, and we're still in good terms.. and of course, ixnay on the mutual understanding thing. :)

So where were YOU 5 years ago?

Ache

I think of
  YOU
And I feel a 
    KNOT in the pit of my stomach
That climbs up to my heart and
  ExPLODES
Into a thousand tiny slivers of 

FIRE.
 Burning into my SOUL
 Leaving me breathless...
  Constantly seeking to be
doused in the cool, CALMING waters of

YOUR LOVE.
  Which
 Nourishes
Enlightens
 Forgives

*************           **************
*************           **************
**************************************
  **and FILLS all of the emptiness**
    ******************************
      **************************
        **********************
          ******in my*******
            **************
              **********
                HEART  

-*-*-*-*-*-*-

I'm pretty pscyhed today! I FINALLY got a personal interview date for the company I wanted to get into after several phone interviews (wow they're really screening like crazy, right?). Anyway, after much researching on the company website I found out that their benefits are great. So good luck to me!

Any Man of Mine

by Shania Twain

First of all, yung real entry ko for the day nasa baba..

Related lang tong lyrics na 'to sa entry. Pero actually medyo exag na toh hahaha! Natuwa lang ako coz I heard it sa mp3s ng ate ko haven't heard the song in awhile It's kinda country :P..

This is what a woman wants...
Any man of mine better be proud of me
Even when I'm ugly he still better love me
And I can be late for a date that's fine
But he better be on time
Any man of mine'll say it fits just right
When last year's dress is just a little too tight
And anything I do or say better be okay
When I have a bad hair day
And if I change my mind
A million times
I wanna hear him say
Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah I like that way

Chorus:
Any man of mine better walk the line
Better show me a teasin' squeezin' pleasin' kinda time
I need a man who knows, how the story goes
He's gotta be a heartbeatin' fine treatin'
Breathtakin' earthquakin' kind
Any man of mine
Well any man of mine better disagree
When I say another woman's lookin' better than me
And when I cook him dinner and I burn it black
He better say, mmm, I like it like that yeah
And if I change my mind
A million times
I wanna hear him say
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I like it that way

(Repeat Chorus)

Let me hear you say yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, yeah I like it that way

(Repeat Chorus)

You gotta shimmy shake
Make the earth quake
Kick, turn, stomp, stomp, then you jump
Heel to toe, Do Si Do
'Til your feet And your backache
Keep it movin' `till you just can't take anymore
Come on everybody on the floor
A-one two, a three four
Hup two, hup
If you wanna be a man of mine, that's right
This is what a woman wants...

100 Guy Points

My brother had a really nice post which HE in turn got from some guy.. I found it too good to resist making my own version TOO.. So here's my list heehee:

1Doesn't have to love coffee but doesn't mind hanging around with ME while I'M having coffee 2Loves to cuddle 3Doesn't mind hanging out at the mall 4Likes window shopping with me 5ACTUALLY makes comments on the things I want and doesn't just grunt in reply when I ask 6Loves dancing 7Lets me watch when he dances so I can make fun of him/be proud of him 8Same thing for sports 8Can play a musical instrument 9Loves food 10Doesn't give me a hard time about pigging out 10Will work out with me after we're both been pigs 11Tells me I look great even if I look like crap 12Understands that I need his compliments 13Honest 14Generally nice to everyone around 15Nice to my friends 16Doesn't mind hanging out with my friends 17Makes an effort to be nice to my family 18Understands my family even though we're weird 19Understands me even though I'm weird 20Will help me out with anything under the sun for as long as he can 21Doesn't bitch about it and actually enjoys it 22He's the spoonful of sugar to make the medicine go down 23Tolerates my insistence on his watching weird classical movies like 'Mary Poppins' and 'Gone With the Wind' 24ACTUALLY watches the movies with me 25Loves watching movies 26Understands my jumpy nature 27Doesn't attempt to persude me too much to watch horror flicks 28Accepts the fact that I avert my eyes when a scary trailer comes up 29Will reserve movies for us 30Will watch chick flicks with me 31Actually likes romance and romantic comedies too 32Loves Anime and watches cartoons 33Loves 'FRIENDS' 34Actually listens to my 'FRIENDS' flashbacks and makes comments about it 35Will discuss scenes from movies/shows with me and have fun 36Is a gentleman 37Gives up his seat on the jeep or the train for an old lady even though he's doggedly tired and sleepy 38STILL tries to pull out a seat for me even though I always pull out my own 39Doesn't grill me or pressure me about religion 40Is willing to discuss it with me when I bring it up 41Same thing for social issues 42Actually has some smart things to say when we actually discuss these things 43Understands my messiness 44Tolerates my mood swings 45Interested in gadgets and other techie stuff 46Loves music 47Likes to sing 48Likes to go KTV-ing 49Has a vivid imagination 50Understands (or pretends to understand) that I get huge crushes on celebrities 51Keeps HIS own crushes mostly to himself 52Has ambitions and dreams 53Has the drive to do what he has to to get where he wants to 54Doesn't resort to sneaky or underhanded means 55Gives ME the drive to get where I have to 56Gives me a hard time when I want to quit 57Is able to apologize when he knows he's wrong 58Always tries to be a better man 59Tries to be independent for as long as he can help it 60Helps me be independent myself 61Is still a shoulder I can lean/cry on 62Can be manly or just like a cute little boy 63Can be noisy and fun or quite and contemplative 64Loves taking moonlit walks 65Knows and understands my past and doesn't give me a hard time about it 66Is willing to meet me at the end of the day when I miss him even though he's tired 67Can laugh at his own mistakes 68Understands my need for gossip and indulges a little in it sometimes 69Has a sunny, comforting smile 70Loves to cuddle 71Loves to hug 72Does not, however, resort to frequent PDAs that turn off a lot of people 73Loves to spend time with me 74Understands when I want to spend time with my friends and understands when I want to spend time with myself 75Loves playing PC games 76Tries to help me out when I play but understands that I hate being tutored TOO much 77Makes fun of me in little ways then laughs and hugs me right after 78Understands that I often leave important things in public places 79 Checks these places for things I've left before we leave (VERY important financially heehee) 80Makes up various little ways to make my day better 81Looks out for my health and his own 82Street-smart 83Open-minded 84Non-judgemental 85Funny 86FUN 87Likes shopping for his own clothes too 88Will defend me against anything/anyone 89Will even defend my friends 90Knows I'm not perfect and neither is he 91Willing to spend an entire lifetime working on it with me and having fun too 92Takes great comfort in my presence 93Is open to people about how he feels about me 94Easily makes friends 95Will stick with me through thick and thin 96Likes planning the future with me 97Happily indulges with me in my weird cravings like cotton candy 98Likes to hold my hand 99Loves me beyond time, space, compatibility and conditionality 100Tells me so.

The difference is that I found this guy already! :) I love you baby!

The 'Half-Blood' Review

So... I finally couldn't resist starting the book... I'm sorry but it was calling out to me!

After around two weeks of emotional turmoil, physical exhaustion and guilt-ridden studying and job hunting, I finally came back to one of the two hobbies that turn me into a drug induced state wherein I totally forget my surroundings and imagine vampires, werewolves and big-haired witches all around. No my dear friends HINDI ITO BAWAL NA GAMOT but the hobby I've never gotten over since the 3rd grade. Yes. It is reading for pleasure. So now I would like to do something I've never done by non-verbal means (I don't want to count Jonathan Livingston Seagull or The Little Prince), I'm going to review a book.

I don't want to put spoilers in here because, of course the people who haven't read it wouldn't be able to read my entry. :) Well there are SOME, but believe me when I say they're not that important. So it's pretty safe to read. My sister got pretty bored and hated the ending. I don't know if it was just that I hadn't read a book in a long time, but I devoured it like a thirsty man drinking a glass of cold water. I think the book was very refreshing. I hated the fifth book by the way. I felt it was too dark, gloomy, irritating and just goes ON and ON. I think the headquarters had something to do with it. Anyway, book 6 contained a lot of surprising twists, some events I had imagined to be a possible outcome but never dreamed JKR would actually write. It's nice to see the characters all grown up, experiencing things as normal teenagers on the way to adulthood, despite the fact that ever since that fated day when YOU started reading HP and TSS (or watched the movie) they had already had to make a lot of difficult decisions that the most trained citizen of magical London would have found nerve wracking. The romantic areas were quite expected, but I found them cute and actually made me nostalgic. I remembered the days when I had no idea AT ALL how guys think with regards to love, so that a single innocent brush of the hand could make me blush to the roots of my hair if only I could blush (never mind the homework tomorrow, or in THEIR case, the immensely evil being who, as always, wants to achieve immortality). Our dear, dear Harry has grown up a lot, but is still, regrettably, impulsive as ever. I guess if he didn't act on his momentary lapses of rationality, we wouldn't even get here anyway. And what is here? The point where you couldn't buy a copy of the book on its release date from Barnes and Noble unless you had a reservation. :) Actually, Harry also made a lot of choices that made me feel like hugging him while I was reading the book. He was sweeter than his usual self and to quote JKR's exact word, quite 'fanciable'. As to who the half-blood prince was, I'd already sort of guessed at it, but it was not obvious enough to be annoying. I loved the way the supporting characters took on the roles of people from everyday life despite the fact that they were from the world of magic. Glimpses of the mothers who would take back their prodigal sons with open arms at the drop of a hat, of people who feel they don't deserve to be loved, or of those who try to get on with their lives but can't because they still feel love for someone they can't love, give the book its human side. And of course, friends who would stick by your side like glue no matter what, love you to no end, and still find the time to scold you for lack of better judgement, make those who have them so lucky, they won't need any potion to make a day better! Harry is still one of these lucky persons. And by the end of the book, you'll find out just how much his friends are willing to do for him.

So! I'm sure people would like to know what I feel about the ending. Well, I'm definitely at a loss for words. It's pretty stunning, and I'm sure quite devastating to the majority, but all in all I think it opens the door to a world of possibilities for the next book/s. As usual, there are still a lot of questions that need to be answered. My only hope is that the answers that JKR gives would be worth waiting for! Honestly, I had thought it would go downhill from book 5. Kudos to JKR for proving the Harry Potter series is still IT-THAT-MUST-BE-READ.

I give the book a 9 out of 10.

Control

Control is something you have to work hard for. Even in the simplest things, if there's something you really want, the only person who can really, truly help you is yourself. Otherwise, the feeling of control that you want in your life isn't gonna be accomplished.

So one serious example is getting a job, or leaving a sucky job with a sucky boss for one with a higher salary and better benefits, or buying a house, or (and this is my personal favorite), painting your room the perfect shade that you want! Hahaha...

If you're a fresh grad (ahem ahem) who's looking for a job, there's no greater satisfaction than getting a job on your own. Going through the entire interview process and all the screening really makes you feel like you earned your place in the ever so shifty career ladders of the world. I'm still hoping to get this satisfaction someday soon. Hahaha...

Leaving a sucky job means working overtime (for yourself, since you have a dayjob) to find a better job. It's also kind of risky, if you end up at a worse job atmosphere. Plus you have a new set of people to get along with, annoying persons to deal with, and asses to kiss. But landing yourself a better position is truly worth it. I'm proud of my ate for finally leaving her sucky job and .. you know etc. etc... Good luck on your GMAT!

Finding a house is already a lot of work. I know for a fact that my sister and her husband drove for blocks and blocks just looking for open houses and for sale signs. Imagine all the ugly houses they entered, those with dingy kitchens and cramped living areas. Of course there were the better looking houses that cost an arm and a leg plus tax. Lolz. And THEN when you find the perfect one and buy it, you have no idea what you're in for. All the work, all the planning, the decorating and such. I know it still feels good for those who've done it. The look on my sister and Joe's eyes when they've finished another project on their home is always priceless. :)

So what's this entry really about? :) Today I painted the first coat of lavender paint on the walls of my room. It looks pretty cool already! And albeit a little girly, I still feel all bubbly inside. On tv shows, it looks really fun when people paint their rooms. Little did we know that it involves a lot of sweating and scrubbing your hair, face, elbows and clothes to take out the paint. It also involves a lot of nervous musing when your paint color doesn't turn out the way it's supposed to on the first coating. But in the end everything turns out great... And tonight I'm sporting several aching muscles and worn joints, but everything works out great when I know I picked my color and those were my hands and my sister's that lovingly applied every inch of lavender in that room. :)

Birthday!

The title is corny but that's what my entry is about!

FYI: My birthday was on the 2nd of August, 1983
FYI2: Z100 our favorite hit radio station here also turned 22 last Tuesday!

So on my birthday, I wasn't expecting much. Of course I missed my friends and my baby so I didn't feel like being too happy. So I just dressed up in a shirt and pants that were 2 sizes too big (we were going to pig out for dinner of course), and then proceeded to go to DMV with my sister first thing in the morning. I wanted to get a non drivers ID card (to prove I'm 22 instead of like 12 or 14, yes being 5 ft flat has its disadvantages!), and my sister renewed her license. At first I waited for my number to flash on the digital board like my life depended on it. But then I suddenly noticed the advertisment/news board and found out several interesting stuff, like the 30% shift of IT people to other career paths over the next few years, and that Julia Roberts is starring in a broadway show next spring. Lo and behold, I missed my number. So I had to line up again and wait again! Good thing my sister was there so I wasn't so bored out of my mind. After that we had Swedish meatballs at Ikea, and looked for a desk for my room. We found one, and also found out that it was temporarily unavailable. How sad. So we just went around, bought some stuff, and I saw a lamp that would look great in my room so we bought it. Really fun plus of course the meatballs were great! After that we went to watch 'Sky High', which was fun and actually had Wonder Woman in it... it's a young teen's film but it was actually a lot of fun to watch! After that we went to the mall and didn't have much to do so we checked out the petshop, and I found these two really cute chihuahuas that looked alike. When I said 'hi!' to them they scratched their cage as if saying 'Take us with you!'. It was so cute! I also found a beagle that made my heart set on buying a beagle in the future, it was already sold and playing with a toy which I assumed the new owner bought it. After that we went to Starbucks and I actually had a real Caramel Frappuccino (not light, since I thought I would indulge on my birthday), and looked around at a scented candle store, which featured really erky smelling candles.. Then we decided to go home for a bit and head to Bed Bath and Beyond (yes believe me after fixing the house we probably would already have memorized the things that they sell there) and then fetched Ate Aleth from the office. Then we went to Target where I bought stuff for the bathroom downstairs (which is now looking REALLY great by the way). I picked the colors so it's kinda girly... Actually reminds me of flowers, which the scented candle actually smells like and is designed with.. haha! Then we ate at this restaurant called PF Chang's which is kind of a Chinese-American fusion type of restaurant. The food was great, one of the best Chinese meals I've ever had! And then we had dessert at home, consisting of Carrot Cheesecake slices from Cheesecake Factory, which were PURE EVIL (and incredibly yummy.. I peg it at 2000 calories per slice hahaha!). I got 2 packages, a box of cookies and other birthday goodies from my sister, which we then used for the usual birthday merriment activities like blowing of candles etc. etc...., and flowers from my baby! Those were totally unexpected, and such a pleasant surprise. :) All in all the day was great.. My sisters made sure that I had a nice day.. I'm sure they felt kind of sad on their first birthday celebration here, away from home. All my friends and other family members made sure to greet me too! Michelle also called, which also was a pleasant surprise because I know the calls come from her own wallet now! Another birthday surprise was that the company that I thought had lost interest in me called to apologize for the delay, and that I was going to get a second interview. I actually had the interview earlier today, and I think it went fine. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they'll call me next week... So for now just wanna say thanks to everyone who greeted me! And hi to Gino who is my birthday buddy!