Saturday, July 30, 2005 | By: danztilya

Evolution

I usually wake up at 8:00 am now, thanks to my radio alarm. It's always tuned in to Z100, and today the topic of conversation was pretty fun! GENDER PROFILING. Basically what they were trying to do was to classify men by emotional age. One caller categorized men into three: Boys, Guys, and Men. I think this is pretty accurate. Ahahahha! So when does a boy become a guy and when does a guy become a man? Well, there are different reasons why a person remains a boy in a woman's point of view. One is maybe you just met him, and the boy is still untested as to whether he doesn't make stupid fart jokes in front of you (someone he's only just met). Another is maybe he hasn't exhibited features that make him a guy (which I will delve into in a little while). Lastly, it could be that he's just your friend, you're both still young, and there's no reason for him to show you he can be a guy (maybe just yet). So hopefully in a little while you realize he actually has a brain, he treats you out for coffee, lunch or maybe dinner, and you realize he's cute and maybe kind of sexy. When you get home from your dates you feel like hanging around in his car just to listen to what he has to say or when he's outside your door saying goodbye you feel like waiting for him to try and kiss you. Best of all, you ACTUALLY feel like bragging to your friends 'Hey, you know I met this guy...', without making a face. So maybe you become an item, MAYBE you spend all of your waking time (or even sleeping time ;) ) together, does that mean he's already a man? Not really. To become a man, he basically has to show he can take care of you well, take you seriously and not play around. Of course, he also has to be able to take care of himself. He should be someone who doesn't have to come running to his mama or even YOU for money if he can help it. He's responsible, knows how to prioritize the important things in his life, and doesn't feel like running from commitment.

Sometimes, men can still act like boys, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE AROUND OTHER BOYS. :) It's not a bad thing. It's kind of cute to see someone who's usually a great wall of manliness act goofy sometimes. Add some beer and a little toilet humor and you've got yourself a boy band!

Another caller, who I'm guessing has had a couple of bad experiences, categorizes them a LITTLE differently. She says first they're DOGS, and THEN they're boys, and then they're men. Hahahahha! Hats off to my friends who've had a lot of bad experiences but haven't gone as far as this lady.


Thursday, July 28, 2005 | By: danztilya

Ordinary

----------Ordinary People - John Legend

Baby, It's me... Maybe I bore you
No, No it's my fault cause I can't afford you

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
----------At times we get sick of love
---------- It seems like we argue everyday

---------- I know i misbehaved
---------- And you made your mistakes
And we both got room left to grow
----------And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
----------We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
----------It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
----------We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
----------And we feel just like walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
----------Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
----------Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay,
----------maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
----------Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow


You never know baby you and I

Thanks for showing me the way baby. :)
Wednesday, July 27, 2005 | By: danztilya

PREFERENCES

Get to know me in a not-so-conventional way..

Fruits
  • Soft, plump, sweet fruits that don't have to be peeled. e.g. fresh cherries, plums, apricots, donut peaches
Vegetables
  • I like the flowery kind like broccolli or cauliflowers. I like lettuce too, and prefer Ranch or Caesar dressing over all the other types of dressing
Hanging Out
  • I now love coffee shops more than bars or clubs. The latter ones are too noisy, there's usually no place to sit, and I can't talk to my friends.
Beverages
  • Obviously I love coffee and hate alcohol. First of all I think alcohol only makes people stupid (this belief was ingrained in my mind after playing 'Neverwinter nights' where a swig of ale lowers your character's intelligence). I also only have half a liver, so alcohol is really a big no-no for me. As for the wholesome beverages, I used to prefer iced tea over anything else. But due to the fact that many restaurants here serve the really icky ice TEA, I've shifted to Diet Coke.
Men

  • I really hate the bad boy type. Those guys that think that the 'angas' vibe is some sort of chick magnet. I've always been attracted to men who are more of the goody-two-shoes type. Note that my favorite superhero is Superman, not because he's super, but because his alter-ego is Clark Kent, mild-mannered reporter.
Women

  • I love seeing women who are strong but also have a softer side to them. That softer side defines their femininity, and the strong side defines their personality. Note also that this description fits Lois Lane's profile.
Books

  • I like romance novels and fantasy books. Anything that sends me to another world or gives me a fictional character's personality as I turn the pages.
Mattresses

  • I like soft mattresses. Bad for the back, I know.. but they make me feel like I'm sleeping on a bed of clouds or cotton candy.
Coffee

  • Sweetened with Splenda, flavored with nonfat Coffeemate
Anime

  • Shoujo! I am still a young girl at heart.
Food

  • I can eat chicken and pizza for months without getting sick of them.
Shoes/Bags

  • I'm a regular girl who loves shoes and bags, and SHOPPING.
Animals

  • I love cute cuddly and furry animals. Especially dogs. My favorite dog in the whooole world is Boom Boom. He's a pug. Hi Boom Boom! I miss you! :)
Colors

  • I used to pretend that I hated pink. But now I can't deny that I love pink. I also love lavender and blue.
Vacations

  • I love the beach and I also love theme parks! I'm not scared of roller coasters, so I like being with people who share my interest in riding them!
Talents

  • I dance to perform. But I sing to have fun! (regardless of whether or not the people around me are having fun as I'm singing. hahaha!)
Dessert

  • Cream. Chocolate. Sugar. Yum.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005 | By: danztilya

Blah.

I'm having a blogger's block. I have no idea what to write.

All I can say is: I recommend watching Desperate Housewives!

Sunday, July 24, 2005 | By: danztilya

Sa Kanya

revived by: MYMP

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin

Chorus:

Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya

At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali man isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin

Repeat Chorus:

Adlib:

Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh

Sa kanya.

Hayh.. ang sad naman ng kantang ito. Hmmm parang may flashback ako tungkol sa some person hahahha.. Di ko na sasabihin kung sino. HINDI AKO. Hehehhe. Si Ogie Alcasid din ba ang nag compose nito? Does anyone out there know? Kung oo.. ang masasabi ko lang.. master of emotion.

Saturday, July 23, 2005 | By: danztilya

Are You Afraid Of the Dark?

It always amazes me.. The fact that I'm such a wimp when it comes to... well, everything! The only fear I ever got over was my fear of dogs. When I was a kid I would refuse to walk down the streets where neighbors had a lot of dogs running around. They never really bothered me (except once when I was bitten on my thigh, I was still very young). Finally, when we got a pet dog when I was in sixth grade (her name is Negra, Neggie for short), I got over the fear. Maybe it was because I started loving dogs.

But when it comes to my other fears, well, that's a different story. Recently I thought I'd gotten over my fear of the dark. Actually, I realized that that fear coincides with all my other fears. It's been awhile since I last saw a scary movie or scene, and it's also been awhile since I last read a book, so my fear of ghosts, psychotics, serial killers, aliens, trolls, goblins and whatnot, had receded to the back of my mind. However, my sister came yesterday and watched CSI with me again. Much to my chagrin, my fear of the dark came back. It's really my fear of the unknown, because of course last night, the overpowering thought was that I would turn on the lights and suddenly find a dead body in front of me.. blood spilling all over the floor. Quite a nasty thought, isn't it?

There's one fear I never can get over though. That's my fear of insects, especially when they're huge, airborne and nasty looking! Never mind that fireflies are JUST fireflies, you just never know if insects could also turn psychotic like people. PLUS, there are so many different species that you never know which one is REALLY nasty. I once got bitten by this huge bug and the swelling didn't go away until about a month after. Talk about icky.

For those people who've conquered most of their fears (or those that they know of), I certainly salute you. I hope one day I could be like you. But for now, here I am, signing off...

Your Friendly Neighborhood Scaredy Cat
Thursday, July 21, 2005 | By: danztilya

Ecstasy

The first time I did it, I realized there's not much in life that can give people such a blissful experience. The heat flows throughout your body, touching every muscle like a powerful current. After so much sweat comes such a sweet release that sometimes you're left breathless with satisfaction. Little else comes close to this when you just had a very tiring, and sometimes annoying day. All your worries will disappear. Thoughts of work, or of homework, evaporate from your mind. Your own glistening body almost whispers a 'Thank You' as you finally wipe off all remnants of your almost sinful activity. You step out of the door clad only in a robe, saying to yourself, "Damn. That was a really nice hot shower."

Heheh. SERIOUSLY, I've gotten into the habit of doing pilates nowadays, and there simply is nothing like a hot shower after. I guess I've kind of made it my 'prize' for getting off my ass and working out again. So if you need to relax, take things off your mind, and just have an ecstatic time, then I truly hope your bathroom has a water heater. :))


Tuesday, July 19, 2005 | By: danztilya

Solo Saxophone

"A song...
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound, a lonely sound
A cry that tells us
Love goes on and on"
- Miss Saigon score


Aside from the songs on my favorite song list (as you'll noticeon my sidebar), I'm quite into solo saxophone stuff nowadays. Have you guys listened to a Kenny G CD before? (probably). John Tesh is also really good.. He did 'Against All Odds' and 'Wind Beneath My Wings'.. two somewhat old songs but they are really great. I don't have any money right now... so I haven't bought any CDs yet (yes, you can probably guess where I get my music). Anyway, the heart just soars when you listen to these things.

Monday, July 18, 2005 | By: danztilya

Life and Music

Recently I've come to realize how every emotion you've ever felt, (or will ever feel) in your life, has been felt at one point in time (or is being felt at this very moment) by someone else in the world. I'm an avid fan of music in general, and I listen to a lot of genres from heart-pounding hiphop to the powerful notes of opera, to just plain pop. Sometimes the rhythm and melody is entertaining enough, but when you're feeling a little emotionally charged, listening and understanding the lyrics of the songs you love is a good way to let the gears in your head start turning (maybe in a way, this can drown out the irrational beatings of your heart). If you think your life is complicated, and no one could even begin to understand what you're thinking, just start listening, and you'll realize that in terms of the complexities of human life, no one is ever alone in their mourning, or even in their happiness. Anything you could ever think about, like faith, loneliness, love, heartache, beauty, anger, jealousy, fear, despair, numbness... anything at ALL, people have written music about them. In this way, people create a harmony of poetry and melody that not only reminds us that life is indeed so interesting that people do not run out of things to write about, but also of music to make that takes your heart to that one place and time someone else has been to already... Allowing us to connect as human beings, whether or not we will ever meet those masters of emotion, or the other people whose lives they have touched, in our entire lifetime.

I would like to mention all of the songs I've ever loved and felt a connection to, or all those singers, writers and composers who make the days seem less lonely, but there are simply too many! So I just wanna say, keep listening people! And never forget that life is a little less dreary when you keep the music playing.

"And I’ve often wondered, how did it all start?
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can?
Well, whoever it was, I’m a fan"

-"Thank You for the Music" Performed by ABBA
Composed by Benny Andersson and Bjorn Ulvaeus
Sunday, July 17, 2005 | By: danztilya

Shifting Sand

by Caedmon's Call

Sometimes I believe all the lies

So I can do the things I should despise
And every day I am swayed
By whatever is on my mind

I hear it all depends on my faith
So I'm feeling precarious
The only problem I have with these mysteries
Is they're so mysterious

And like a consumer I've been thinking
If I could just get a bit more
More than my 15 minutes of faith,
Then I'd be secure

(Chorus)
My faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on grace

I've begged you for some proof
For my Thomas eyes to see
A slithering staff, a leprous hand
And lions resting lazily

A glimpse of your back-side glory
And this soaked altar going ablaze
But you know I've seen so much
I explained it away


Waters rose as my doubts reigned
My sand-castle faith, it slipped away
Found myself standing on your grace
It'd been there all the time


FINALLY (*sing* It has happened to me... hehe KTV modes)

FINALLY! Jeez... I haven't been able to access my blog for a few days now.. It turns out, connection was slow and my Ate just reconnected everything (yay!). Anyway, I'm pretty full right now, we had dinner at Manny's, this restaurant somewhat near our house (and my sister's in laws), and they paid to celebrate Tito Fred's retirement. Congrats! Anyway, I totally pigged out on crispy pata and lechon kawali.. While watching kris aquino in her new game show (is it still game k n b?) on a big screen TV. Almost felt like home. :)

I'm watching the last volume of 'Marmalade Boy' with my sister. Netflix didn't have it, and she actually paid for 1 month of Blockbuster so that we could watch it. Hahaha! The topic on the last volume hits a little close to home, although to tell you the truth, the episodes are a little cornier than in the first volumes. It's like Fushigi Yugi all over again. Hahaha.. enough about anime.

SO! I still don't have a job (which I'm pretty sure is not a good idea to tell everyone, since it makes me look useless... but I guess you know that already hahaha!), and I'm still dreading my first bus ride to the city.. or maybe back from the city. Hopefully I don't mess up and end up somewhere else where I'll have to call someone to pick me up. Talk about embarrassing.

I miss you Bestie.. WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!?! Haha just kidding. I actually know. So have fun and hope to talk to you soon DAMMIT! Hehehe... Want to say a special HI to Ponch and Quel who are fans of my trash can.. heehee...
Tuesday, July 12, 2005 | By: danztilya

Kikay





Hmmm.. Kikay ba ako? Mukhang hindi di ba? But NO!

Check out the pics of my new garbage can... hehehhe... Makes u think.

It's a tile mosaic.
Sunday, July 10, 2005 | By: danztilya

SLAM


If there could be one thing that I would never be able to forget about my college life, it would be the friendship I shared with three people. YES to your question bestie, THREE. Hehehe. In a lot of ways, we've each grown apart. I from them, and they from each other. I wish somehow I could go back in time and start things over when we were still freshmen, get together as early as we could have, and have the kind of fun we had on our last year of college, before most of the drifting apart began. I know we would have conquered the world (or maybe just our circle of friends hahaha), had we realized how great we were together. If only outside influences hadn't driven us to a somewhat sad end. All is not lost though! I still keep in touch with two of them, and as far as I know the three of us are still the best of friends in more ways than one. For all the laughter and silliness, and even for all the tears and sadness, I want to thank them, and dedicate this entry to SLAM:


(in order of appearance from left to right):

MICHELLE:

Michelle is the most pure-hearted, sweetest person that I have ever known in my entire life. Before, when we weren't so close, I'd already decided to myself that she deserves the best that life has to offer. I never stopped believing that even after all the time we'd spent together, talking about an amazing number of things that I never thought I'd be able to talk to her about. Sometimes she seems to live in this fantasy world, where everyone she meets is kind-hearted, generous, and not one person has even a hint of an evil streak. I guess that's why we feel so protective of her (not only me but also most of the people around her). To the point of being naive, she always starts off seeing everyone in the best light. Sometimes it's annoying (especially when I have to raise my cat-claws and kill off the damn hyenas hahaha!), but it's also very endearing. Aside from that, she's a real workaholic. Right after we graduated she got so depressed because there was nothing to do but bum around in the truest sense. Michelle! Sarap sarap magpakatamad eh! Hahahha! I guess people learn about me from here too (and not in the good sense I think...) On the more shallow side, Michelle has become one heck of a fashionista over the years. And you can easily spot her kind of style when you go to the mall to shop. Actually, a lot of times we've ended up not buying some article of clothing or accessory because it seemed too 'Shelly'.

LIA:

When I first met Lia I thought (at the risk of sounding gay) "Wow she's really pretty." And you know, she WAS and still IS. Of us four I've always thought she's the prettiest (sorry Michelle hahahaha!). When we were close, she was a great friend. Short of doing something that would anger her mom (like stay overnight or be out really late), there was nothing she wouldn't do to help me out. Of course, she was also GREAT at charming other people so that THEY in turn would help her out. It's not really manipulative, it's just that when you meet her you always have the urge to try and help her, especially when you see her worried face or maybe her pretty smile. She used to be SUCH A GEEK when we were freshmen. She was always worried about schoolwork and homework. I remember one time I was telling her and Steph something important, and she never found out because she was too busy talking about some homework we had for Social Science I. She also used to love gushing about cute guys. Of course, we almost never agreed on which of the guys really ARE cute. (Like the endless dispute about Leonardo DiCaprio being gay and Dean Cain being.. well, ugly to her I guess). She'd always been my malling partner too. Sta. Lucia mall was our second home. At one point, the two of us could rarely be seen without each other. We had a lot of good times.

STEPH:

Ahhh Steph. My current best friend who will hopefully remove the strain of bad luck that's been haunting me and the term 'best friend' for years. I'm endlessly surprised at how stubborn our friendship has been throughout the years. We've gone through a lot of rough patches (and when I say rough, you have no idea!) I guess I shouldn't be too surprised, considering we both ARE really stubborn. I usually shut everyone out when I'm really feeling depressed. SHE however, tells some people what's wrong, asks for their advice, but does whatever she wants anyway! Well, that's us. We're not exactly the most easy pair of friends to deal with. But we're also a lot of fun once you get the hang of how to deal with us. ;) Caffeine brought us together, and caffeine will be what KEEPS us together throughout the years, even if it seems most of these will be spent apart. There's another vice to be spoken of (I'm sure you know that bestie), but I loathe to speak of it in front of people. I'll leave you guys to your own imaginations. (For those who know us, you know what I mean ;) ). I miss so much the days when I would ask everyone to do KTV with me, and she would come along to order drinks, food, and then REQUEST the songs she wants other people to sing. Hahahaha! I of course, would never say no to a song (or maybe even a dance). Just don't make me do a song/dance number, BELIEVE ME I SUCK. SHE however, HATES to dance in public. I saw her do it maybe twice before.. She's not that bad (you better start trying! ;) ). She also LOVES to shop and LOVES to eat great food at great places. Sorry bestie I have to say it: She SPENDS money like CRAZY. Please lang Steph, save ka naman para mabisita mo ko dito.. hahaha! Also, as opposed to normal girls, she loves dark chocolate, and doesn't like white chocolate too much. So there! She also loves going to the movies, and seldom misses a major hollywood film. She's very smart, a math whiz in fact, and she hates the idea of being useless (don't worry bestie, nobody thinks that of you), that's why she always has drive. She's part chinese, but HATES herbal tea. She's very emotional, and easily gets annoyed at some things (or PEOPLE hahaha), but she also easily gets excited and happy to the point of child-like glee (which I also admit to). This is a part of the two of us people usually have to get used to (and you HAVE TO.. hehehe). I miss staying overnight with her and talking nonstop about everything and nothing. Hayh. There's still a lot left to tell.. Maybe I'll put it in her friendster testimonials :). For now, just want to say that I love you bestie! Ingat and happy coffeeing!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005 | By: danztilya

Far and Away (from home)

It's been awhile since I last posted an entry... I do miss my blog.. It's just that moving out of the house has been a pretty tiring experience.. leaving me beat most of the time. It's a lot of fun too though, visualizing what the new house would look like when we're done cleaning it up and unpacking, shopping for new stuff. Of course, it's not MY house.. I'm just gonna be living here with my sister and brother in law for the next couple of years. It might sound kinda lame, especially if you're not Filipino, but I think it's nice having people to chat with in the middle of the night, or watch anime with like 'Marmalade Boy' or even to watch CSI with so that I can get really scared.. (okay I admit I scare easily all right? so remember never to invite me to watch scary movies). Our family's always been broken, but it does have a lot of extra branches, and the parts that are intact are still good. Like Lilo said in 'Lilo and Stitch', "broken, but still good". Besides, I don't consider myself single, so I don't really need the privacy.. hahahha!

I miss going out so much and just having coffee with my friends. Sometimes when I think about it, us having coffee every day just whiling away our time sitting around, I feel like the world I'm in right now is a dream world, every day having the thought in my mind that there's just SO much to do. It's hard, but it makes me feel that I at least have some sense, that I'm not totally useless. I only wish I could feel that way, and still have them around. By the way, kung mabasa mo to Pat salamat sa kape at sa pakiramdam na makakapagkape pa pala ko with a friend... once every two years maybe? hahaha hopefully sa Pilipinas na sa susunod.. kasama lahat kayo at c baby..

Anyway, back to reality for now.. Can anyone help me with this box? :)